live journal sucks

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 15:20:46 GMT

colour my life in the chaos of trouble.

digital bath

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 04:55:10 GMT

my ambition is handicapped by my laziness.

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 19:47:53 GMT

"Consider all this; and then turn to this green, gentle, and most docile earth; consider them both, the sea and the land; and do you not find a strange analogy to something in yourself?"
-Herman Melville, Moby Dick

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 11:42:54 GMT

they call me ALPHABET, 'cause i'm the ALPHA male and you can BET on that. hahahahaahahahahaa.

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 21:32:49 GMT

i'd like to tell you all about it.

don't go down

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 19:11:20 GMT

better stop before it goes too far.

beat generation

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 04:15:32 GMT

Gregory Corso once wrote,
"Spirit
is Life
It flows thru
the death of me
endlessly
like a river
unafraid
of becoming
the sea"

fabulous muscles

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 09:24:52 GMT

normally i would never speak of work, but this goes beyond standards. There's this woman that i work with everyday, she calls me her partner in crime. Her name is Margaret and she is about 65 and probably going to die in the next 10 years. She has baked me cookies, banana bread, cake and some pie in the last 3 weeks, which is completely unorthodox. I find this old woman to be hilarious, yesterday she was working across the table from me and i looked away and when i looked back i guess she was on the floor and i asked her if she was having a seizure, and she started laughing so hard she was crying and she couldn't get up, so someone had to help her. She laughs that hard like 3 times a day at my lame jokes. I think she's cool, but she's also old and smells...

I cut my own hair a few weeks ago and i'm willing to bet people think i am an escapee from a mental institution, so i guess i should really go and get it fixed this weekend.

records dream daze

Fri, 16 May 2008 03:25:10 GMT

I bought either/or by elliot smith on record, and i've listened to it 6 times since i got home 3 hours ago. His voice and guitar is so soothing and comforting, but he was quite the ugly person, his mind and talent exceeded appearances though. He killed himself a few years ago by stabbing himself in the heart. That's tragic bravery. I could never imagine a knife to my own heart.

"walk down alameda brushing off the nightmare you wish
could plague me when i'm awake
and now you see your first mistake was thinking that you could relate
for one or two minutes she liked you
but the fix is in
you're all pretension
i never pay attention
nobody broke your heart
you broke your own because you can't finish what you start
nobody broke your heart
you broke your own because you can't finish what you start
nobody broke your heart
you broke your own because you can't finish what you start
nobody broke your heart
if you're alone it must be you that wants to be apart"

the world's a mess and so are we

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 13:53:57 GMT

Lost a friend to cocaine,
Couple friends to smack.
Troubled hearts map deserts,
And they rarely do come back.
Lost a friend to oceans,
Lost a friend to hills,
Lost a friend to suicide,
Lost a friend to pills,
Lost a friend to monsters,
Lost a friend to shame,
Lost a friend to marriage,
Lost a friend to blame,
Lost a friend to worry,
And lost a friend to wealth,
Lost a friend to stubborn pride,
And then I lost myself.
But i dreamt we were all beautiful and strong.

kill your idols

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 14:33:25 GMT

Together, together, together, together
Never to retreat
Mystery and wonder
Messy hearts made of thunder

read, read, read. do do do.

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 16:04:26 GMT

From now on, I'm not doing anything I don't want to do. The world owes me happiness, fulfillment, and success. I'm just here to cash in.

lightness of being

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 16:54:46 GMT

what happened once might as well have never happened at all.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 14:47:49 GMT

"You can't live in a town this shallow."

MidtermFucks

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 12:53:37 GMT

"I remember wanting to do something about that enormous-faced wristwatch she was wearing — perhaps suggest that she try wearing it around her waist."
-Salinger, Franny and Zooey

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 14:39:39 GMT

The air is peopled with cruel and fearsome birds.

JTHM

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 16:29:12 GMT

"You know that feeling you get? The one where you just know you're going to projectile vomit out of every orifice? I feel that right now. I want you away. Leave me to my vomit."

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 14:32:24 GMT

College is high school, im utterly dissappointed.

Projekt Revolution

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 17:40:22 GMT

Placebo tomorrow! and msi?

it's the beat generation

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 06:55:55 GMT

Jack Kerouac once wrote, "I feel guilty for being a member of the human race."

sun burnt

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 02:42:45 GMT

we met poison the well and k-os today, very intelligent and dedicated musicians. By far the best performances i have witnessed thus far.

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 04:14:46 GMT

i want a place to hang out, where record players play and there are a thousand movies rented for a thousand nights with her...

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 05:06:16 GMT

Maybe it's me who's this unstable,
Always obsessed about the end,
Why can't I let what happens happen
And just enjoy the time I spend?
Oh, how I wish it was that easy,
But when there is no point to anything,
You know it gets a bit confusing.

metaphors

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 03:13:19 GMT

What did the individual in front of me think about? Since he was an individual, and his perspective ran astray from the world. I wonder if he knew that individually he was existing, or even existing by any means. I wonder if his will of existence was fleeing him, or me, or of my understanding that i existed following him and his individual seat. He may have discovered an existence unworthy of existing within those mere minutes that fled behind the both of us individually. Imagining if he did discover, afterwards; did he escape the seat, the vehicle, the perspective, the people, even me resembling the moments that escaped him? Did he leave an existence he believed unworthy of his existence to rest in discontent? Only to become something all the more ignorant, uneven in presence and unwilling to understand what has yet to be considered alive, because it has not yet developed itself. (In Everything) He could have wandered astray or struggled through, ignorantly absurd. It goes without saying; he may never have confronted an absurd existence...

...he may inconceivably be purely to uncover everything.

just thoughts...

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 05:27:44 GMT

-i think my life is of great importance, but i also think it is meaningless.
-appearing creates being.
-an actor travels the whole course of the dead end path that the man in the audience takes a lifetime to cover.
-can one be happy and solitary?
-it is impossible to live with people when knowing their ulterior motives. Resolutely rejecting any collective judgement.
-people who love each other and are seperated can live in pain. But whatever they say, they do not live in despair, because they know that love exists.
-Our life must have meaning for us to value it. If we accept that life has no meaning and therefore no value, should we kill ourselves?